September 20, 2009

On Lolita

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:51 am by rosecarnival

Lolita fashion is a major point in my life. Although I don’t exactly have a huge wardrobe, I still have some beloved dresses that mean alot to me. Lolita fashion means alot to me.

Yeah, it’s clothes. Just clothes. Frilly, lacey, flowery, ribbon-adorned, pastel or black, petticoated clothes.  But every girl who dresses lolita has her own story to tell. To every lolita, whether they just dress the style or they live the style holds lolita in their hearts.

My story? Well, I had always liked more girly things, and in middle school, I took and interest in the Victorian era, corsets and lace and petticoats. Unfortunatly, the only corsets or lace I could get was the gothic style at Hot Topic. So when a friend told me about the Gothic and Lolita bible, I became intrigued. I fell in love with the sweet lolita style, because I could wear the style I like without looking gothic. Their is nothing wrong with the gothic style, but my mum would have a heart attack and this was the age of school where, if you wore more then one thing that’s black, you would be emooooo.

So upon taking a trip to Japan, I purchased my first lolita item from Baby, the Stars Shine Bright. From their on, my love of lolita fashion started. I dappled with an ita-licious dress- too short, half bad and half nice lace. But it’s the trials we go through that make us better dressed lolitas, eh? When I found out my sewing skills were limited to sock toppers, headbows, headdress, and wristcuffs, I knew I would have to save and save to buy lolita. Hours spent mowing lawns in the Guam heat and humidity paid off- BTSSB dress!  And so on and so forth- more work equaled more lolita clothes.

I enjoy all matters of lacey and frilly things, but a lolita dress is my favorite frills. Even though the dresses can be impratical, and bring down unwanted comments, lolita always made me feel empowered and special. Just that I am out there saying “Yeah, this is how I like to dress. You have a problem?” Lolita makes me feel like a modern-day princess- a princess who can stand up for herself and knows how to dress.

Even when I am in an old t-shirt and shorts, I still like to call myself “lolita.” I don’t think I can really explain this, but I do.

If you’ve read my RAGE post, yes, I overeacted over lolita. Normally I would have just calmed down and explained how not everything in lolita. But a personal experience and the truth of lolita were at stake, so I flipped. Partly because of the reasons I mentioned above, and partly because I got to say alot of things to that boy that I’ve been wanting to say for a while.

So, in short, lolita means alot to me, much more then clothes. I’m no lifestyle lolita, but I agree on how the clothes make you feel (to a degree).

So stay lovely lolita-chans!


September 19, 2009


Posted in Uncategorized at 5:26 am by rosecarnival



Well, it all started off as a nice, relaxing day in APUSH. We were in groups, doing work nothing. In my group was me, Daisy, Victoria, Alejandro and Cesar. We hop from one topic to the next, laughing and stuff. Then, I mention that Alejandro and Cesar should dress up all nice like they do when they go and see orchestras and stuff, and then Daisy and I should dress lolita. Just as a joke, you know. Daisy jokes she’ll dress as a farmer and be a total bum, and then laugh laugh laugh oh ho ho ho…. and then Cesar has the nerve to say that Sara dressed up and had a little tea party that was like lolita.  Oh no, you just didn’t.

In any other case I would have kept my cool and explained that not everything was lolita. But in this case I totally flipped. 

Me: What did you say?

Cesar: Well, the pictures in your magazines and the tea party she had looked really similar. I mean, she’s really nice and funny and she did the little party thing.

Me: That’s not lolita.

Cesar: I didn’t say it was-

Me: No. Okay, no. What don’t you fucking understand? That bitch’s whorish, half-assed attempt is by no means lolita, kay?

Cesar: I just said that the two were similar-

Me: No, No, No.  Her shitty Forever 21 dress and lolita have nothing in common, alright? I don’t want you to mention them in the same sentence, got it? It’s not lolita. She never will be. This conversation is over.

Cesar looked really taken aback by now, so I stopped. And then later, he said that a guy I know makes really stupid comments in his English class. Now, this guy is creepy, and I would have said so, but I was not in the mood. After I argue, I want to argue more. I can’t help it.

Me: Well, you were stupid enough to confuse Sara’s half-assed tea party with lolita, so I don’t think you can talk, eh?

Cesar: Look, I never said it was. I only said that they were similar.

Me: No. A shitty dress on a whore will never be lolita. Get it though your head. She’s not anything close to lolita. Fuck that stupid tea party. Don’t you dare speak about her.

Yeahhhh, I totally freaked out, flipped out, overeacted, etc etc. Over lolita clothes. OVER LOLITA CLOTHES. CLOTHES.  But, no matter how sophisticated and mature I claim to be, I still retain some degree of shallow and narcissm. Lolita clothing, although it doesn’t really make or break anything, was always the one thing I had over her. Just something that I could hold onto. Silly, yes. Just the combined knowledge of Cesar being closer to Sara then I thought, and that he took something precious to me and compared it to her (I hope to God that he did not tell her about lolita) that just made me snap.  I normally don’t get mad like this.

I will apologize, but say something along the lines of “I admit I overeacted, but my point remains valid.”

September 13, 2009

Junior Year

Posted in In the Life of a Lolita at 4:03 am by rosecarnival

Well, it’s time to review my all-new JUNIOR YEAR!

This is the year that MATTERS!

Because of junior year, I bought book covers EARLY. I even covered my books. So classy.

This year, I am taking the following: AP Biology, Algebra II, Chemistry Honors, AP European History, AP English and AP U.S History. Wow

AP Biology: I love biology, but this class is my hardest class. So much specifics in terms of chemistry. Luckily, cool people take this class, who often times are just as confused as me, so we get to be confused together. It’s all good.

Algebra II: Most easy math I have ever taken. Algebra II is so easy… so I get to bring in stuff from other classes and do that. I just feel so stupid sometimes because I am a junior and technically should be in Math Analysis. I’m thinking about taking classes at a community college in M.A to boost me up. I cannot be a senior in math analysis next year… I can’t.

Chemisty Honors: FUN! I love chemistry (because I understand it… wait until I don’t). I came in late to this class, so I had 4 weeks to work to make up, but pulled off a solid A. On Thursday we burnt chemicals. That was joy.

AP European History: PARTY CLASS and HEADACHE CLASS! The chapters in this book are so long and its tl;dr. The book we use for an 11th-12th grade class is actually the same book I used in 9th grade World History. Great fun! The class is fun, because its just more detailed European history, but the outlines are often 10 or more pages. I remember when Ms. Zapanta used to write our notes for us in 9th grade… those were the days.

AP English: Another good class. Mrs. Fozzn is one of the greatest and most fun teachers ever. She made the Scarlet Letter funny. She is making Othello fun because she points out all the dirty stuff. Class is easy but ohhh my gossssshhhh the tests…. so hard!

AP U.S History: I have alot of friends in this class, so it’s all fun. However, it can get really boring sometimes, and the notes are long. But it’s really okay, since I do well on the tests.

Oh, I’ve decided not to join water polo this year. I think fencing is a mcuh better idea.

September 8, 2009

Spirit Tracks and AC/DC?

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:36 am by rosecarnival


I can’t think of the new Legend of Zelda game, Spirit Tracks without thinking of this:

it’s from the Black Ice Tour Opening. It’s pretty funny.


Sorry Blog

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:04 am by rosecarnival

Sorry Rose Carnival, and the many people who find this blog by accident.

I haven’t been updating it lately. School’s been busy busy.

Maybe this week sometime. Also, I spend a lot of time on my iTouch, and typing on it ala blog entry is a pain.

What to Expect Maybe:

1. Wicked/ACDC pictures

2. Moer lolita myth-busting? IDK.

3. Exciting updates on my life.